Forbidden Poetry

Fuck The World

2012-01-13T01:01:00.000-08:00

You think you have a future
Don't fool yourselves
Jewish girls
Muslim girls
Catholic girls
Christian girls
Evangelical girls
Hindu girls
Buddhist girls
The rest of you girls
Fuck you hard

American Whore

2011-12-20T23:10:00.000-08:00

Oh brazen wife of Lucifer!
Oh mommy of us all!
Oh scatological suffering at your hands!
Oh trembling at the touch of your sanctified stiletto heels!
Oh how you attend to the sacrosanct powdering of the balls!
Oh eternal wife of Satan!
Oh revolution of the libido!
Oh milk laden breasts that are bursting!
Oh the sensitive nipples of the goddess!
Oh the pleasure of nursing!
Oh the taste of mother’s milk!
Oh the professional surgical circumcision!
Oh maternal symbol of the moonlit night!
Oh tall blonde in boots!
Oh truly she has explored the boundaries of perversity!
Oh enchantress from a golden age!
Oh queen of all animal passion!
Oh forever under your charismatic spell!

We are doomed to live in our hypocrisy
Licking the genitalia of American Whores
I am an American Whore
Filthy motherfuckin' American Whores aren't we?
And our children have no chance
We are all whores aren't we?

Deranged and disturbed and depraved
Obsession
Personal and confidential
I feel vulnerable with you
Please don’t hurt me
I love it when you nurture me

Mommy (Our tongues danced to the infernal tempo of lust)

2011-11-30T14:22:00.000-08:00

She was my girlfriend
Her mother hit on me
Mommy was so beautiful and sexy
I could hardly resist
I could not resist at all
Mommy was wearing black lingerie
With little pink bows near her crotch
Mommy enticed me into her bedroom
She removed her clothes
In some kind of devilish strip tease
A woman in her forties
Mommy had blonde hair cascading down to her shoulders
I always loved the stiletto heels and stockings
That she usually wore
But all of a sudden she was naked before me
Yes butt naked before me
Mommy grabbed me by the shoulders
Kissed me hard on the mouth
Our tongues danced to the infernal tempo of lust
Mommy straddled me and inserted my penis into her vagina
Riding me with a rhythmic motion
Her daughter, my girlfriend, entered the room and proceeded to lick my balls
Until I came hard as a result
Mommy came soon after me
After I withdrew from Mommy
I took her daughter’s clitoris into my mouth
Exciting my girlfriend to climax with my tongue
Her Daddy entered the room and asked if he could join in
I said I had to go

Death By Vodka

2011-10-26T14:19:00.000-07:00

And they found
All the empty vodka bottles
Around the room
In silent tribute
To the memory of the deceased
The clear ocean had drowned someone
Who got lost in its impure waters
Fading in the distance from a toxic shoreline
Lapsed into a deep sleep
A warm enveloping coma of death
So peaceful
So serene
Without worry or concern
For this world

Heart Of Darkness

2011-09-15T20:51:00.000-07:00

I stole the title
The way I want to steal her heart
Traveling through the jungle of her emotions
Conrad and Eliot knew how I feel
Awash in the river of her soul
Pushing onward onward onward
Kurtz should have been a woman
With the beauty and madness
In her eyes
In the flowing mane of her hair
I feel the madness myself
Sanity slowly slipping away
I am thankful for the insane moments
As Poe was
I want to be a thief
Possess everything that is beautiful
Everything that is rare as ivory
Not because of the money
Because I lust for beauty
I lust for passion
I lust for everything that she is
I want to be the blood flowing through her veins
The savage river of her body
Her heart is a dark place
The light and the love cannot escape
But remain in her heart forever
It is so beautiful
Her shining beauty
At the center of all darkness

Suicide Pact Poem

2011-09-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

If you want to kill yourself
I am here
To take my life with yours
Without a thought
A suicide pact
Between your feelings and mine
Because I am in love with you
And fuck the reasons
I do not care what anyone thinks
About the love we share or how much I drink
If you want to die
I will go there with you
To the gates of hell
I will follow you down
If the madness calls I will answer the phone
It is better than suffering a life all alone
Dig your nails into my chest
And rip out my heart
It belongs to you
With blood on your hands
Grab me by the throat
Kiss me on the mouth
Rip open my pants
And fuck me hard
If you want it to end
Please take me with you
Then we could find some eternal peace
Forever in your arms
My face in your sweet breasts

The Sheets Are Red With Blood

2011-08-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

Eyes that read my soul
When I feel that I am drifting
Memories of long ago
When I would stand and listen
Time changes a lot of things
But not everything changes

I need to understand
All that has happened
It all went by so fast
That I felt like I was drowning
I pulled myself out of the depths
Where I was lost and gasped for air

I feel connected to you
Like there is no end
To everything we feel
About the past
And all the pain we carry inside
Is easier to bear

All the things I need are here
But you are the exception
The days go by, the sunset bleeds
The nights are stained and lonely
I talked myself into believing
We were for the ages

I will have my love for you
Until I die
With nothing left to prove
The sheets are red with blood
From all the times we did not care
What time it was

Red Lipstick

2011-08-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

Red lipstick
Smeared across her lips
Dominatrix boots
As black as night
That she wears with abandon
I love it when she sings to me
And looks me in the eye
Baptizes me with liquor
Burns my soul with her smile
I can’t let her go
Haunted by memories
Years pass in a haze
Doing what I have to do
I wish I could see her
Outside of the sonic waves
Emancipated at dawn
I have nothing but love for her
Our hearts are fragile and breaking
Scratch marks down our souls
The fire that rages inside
Destroys all heartache
Cleans out the wounds
I want to see the happiness on her face
That eclipses the sun
Deliverance from pain
In the light of joy
She is my girl
I will hold her in my arms
Until the world ends

Sex Poem

2011-08-08T10:06:00.001-07:00

Mother of Jesus
I am so fucking high right now
That I hope no one notices
Let me tell you about a girl I know
We fucked in the summer heat
Our bodies sticky with sweat
I was fixated on the wound on her hand
And the moles on her back
The sunburn that grazed her skin
As we fornicated against each other
I buried my face in her hair
Taking in all of her scent
Sex poem
Ready for you
Welcome to the human race
Not always so pretty
The look on your face
As you ride your orgasm
Your body is a paradise of curves
A soft and gentle cat
Ready to bite and scratch
Stand in your stiletto heals
Presenting your ass to me
A vision in white
Yes you are the ocean mother
Holding on to my balls
With your soft hands
As I come
Kissing your smile

Bestiality?

2011-07-30T01:25:00.000-07:00

The first time I fucked you
You were like an animal
A desert beast
I did everything I wanted to do
And you let me
I know we are animals
Love is in a cage
A memory of the past
But I never thought
That the act of you and I
Could be so tempestuous
That some would call it bestiality
Our union was not sanctioned by God
But only by our own primal influences
And if I am the Devil
You are the slithering snake
You don’t care if lust is love
Or if you look me in the eye
But our deaths will be all we know
When this game comes to an end
And I don’t care if there is a God
Or if your betrayal makes any sense
Because I would rather be dead
Than to live without you for another day
Let me die in your arms rather than suffer
Another day
Fuck it all to hell
Eat death
And fuck all of the wayward angels to hell

Amy Winehouse Death Poem

2011-07-26T01:56:00.001-07:00

Fuck death anyway
What does it mean
We are all going to die
No matter how well we live
Leave a mark you bastards
Instead of hiding in the shadows
The corruption of the world surrounds us
Eating away at our souls
Hypocrisy at our throats
Choking our artistry
27 club
We were all used
Passion made a buck
A fucked up list
That we should worship
So screw it all to hell
I don’t give a fuck
Everyone on that list
Would tell you
To just goddamn grow up
They gave their art
Nothing more is owed to you
We take their deaths as ransom
For the banality of our lives
They paid the fucking price
Does it matter
Shall we suck off the grim reaper
Death is welcome
For us all

Her Uncle's Hand

2011-07-19T10:20:00.000-07:00

Her Uncle’s hand was clasped tightly over her mouth
She could barely move from the force of his hold
Don’t scream, he commanded
Don’t make a goddamn sound
I’m going to let go of you
But don’t scream
Letting go, he attempted to touch her breasts and crotch
Once again, she let out a blood curdling scream
He put his hand tightly over her mouth
Silencing her
Alright, I won’t touch you
But don’t scream
Don’t make a fucking sound
Do you understand
She nodded as well as she could
Against the force of his hold
I’m going to let go of you
I will not touch you
As long as you don’t make a sound
Again she nodded in his grasp
He released his hold
She remained mute
All you have to do is watch, he said
He unbuckled his belt
Pulled down his pants
And pulled out his erect penis
He proceeded to masturbate himself
In front of her eyes
Until his messy climax

Necrophilia Poem

2011-07-16T21:20:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the game
Drag all of the pink roses
With you to your grave
You were pretty honey
When you were alive
But now your cold dead lips entice mine
I want to feel your dead flesh
As I caress you dear
I see you now as pure perfection
Deserving all of my worship
My goddess
My icon of love
You left this world forever
And far better off are you
The warmth of a living girl
Does nothing for me
I want to put your cold dead arms around me
You are not missing so much
The living hustle for a buck
I use my spit as lubricant
On my blood engorged cock
Slide it oh so delicately
Into your lifeless decaying cunt
I smell you as God meant you to be
Returning your corpse to the earth endlessly
All who abused you in this life
Shall suffer the eternal tortures of hell
The church bells ring
The children play

Cutting Poem

2011-07-14T00:31:00.001-07:00

When the stares turn to shock and rage
All they see are the scars I bear
How could you do this
The story starts with the knife I used
Dragged it across my arm until it felt good
Blood hits the air as the brightest red
This is my pain
Now I am in control
Wipe the blade clean
And wash all the scarlet stains away
Sometimes I cut along my upper thighs
Beyond detection
Cannot talk about the feelings
That are ready to destroy me
No use to cry or get angry
Drag the sharp edge across my leg
Oh God it feels good
Pressing so deep to find what I need
Emotions inside me are going to explode
Until I am dripping my blood
Far away from this life is where I want to go
When my heart is in a golden cage
Everything is spinning out of control
Need to take a hold
With all that I have left inside
Forget the shame
Do not ask me why I do this
Let the rivers of blood subside
As I put away my knife

My City Could Kiss The Mushroom Cloud

2011-07-09T23:43:00.000-07:00

Weakness
See it all around me
Every day
Rarely meet a strong person
You give a fuck what someone else thinks
Life in this world is a joke
Let us kick back and laugh at it all
No one really cares after all
My city could kiss the mushroom cloud
Would you fucks care
Naw
Too busy sucking each other off
If death came you would welcome it
Prelude to something crawling up your ass
You don’t give a shit
Cowardice in your spine
Run the yellow light
Punk
A mother kills her child
No one really cares
They are just bored
Afraid to go home
And confront their own
An asteroid may hit the earth soon
The ultimate cleansing
The human race has to prove itself worthy
Otherwise
Fuck it to the last pit in hell
Assholes

Burning City

2011-06-18T18:51:00.001-07:00

Out of the haze of a burning city
I would travel a million miles to see you
Not through space
But through our souls
It rips me up all the more
Icon standing at the door

Cease to exist without your love
Without you
None of it would make any sense
My back against a wall
In a forbidden desert
With all hope eternally lost

The cat in your eyes
Holding my gaze
Some kind of cosmic miracle
I live forever by your side
As always
Your transcendent beauty does not subside

Do not ask what it all means
A fragile moment enduring through the years
As we never let go of each other
The world spinning out of control
I embrace you fully
An attempt to find some peace among the ruins

Immersed In The Dance Of Souls

2011-05-12T00:57:00.000-07:00

Dim the lights
Disrobe in near darkness
Move through the shadows as sultry leopards
Flesh upon flesh
Embracing each other's strength
Feeling breath and heat
The sadness and the joy
As the night unfolds
Collapsing in each other's arms
Vulnerable through intimacy
Love has made its mark
Pleasure parallel to pain
Immersed in the dance of souls
Throwing caution to the sky
Driven on by impulse
The softness of your form
Radiant and wild
Merciful in the execution of love
Outside of culture
Not limited by convention
Transcending all borders
The kisses are wet and pure
Touching in a trance
Annihilation versus romance
Sever from the physical world
Withdraw when all is done
Magical and rare
The quiet and the stillness
That engulfs us both

I See Better Days

2011-04-30T06:22:00.000-07:00

In your style I see better days
After all we have been through here
Night and day are slipping away
But I still feel your presence near
And I know
You can take it all
So it goes
With an angel doll
When I’m low
I’m going to make you see
You’re the one for me
And I never will let go
On the street darkness always reigns
Feeling beat by all the past lines
In this game no one really gains
When we love we pay all the fines
And I know
You can take my heart
So it goes
Reckless from the start
When I’m low
I’ll take you by the hand
Make you understand
And I never will let go

Forever Marked With Fame

2011-03-16T09:27:00.001-07:00

You stare at me so sweetly
calling me to you
Living on the wages
of love rising from the street

Randomly forsaken
the world sets the rules
Damaged beyond heartache
only you know the truth

You feel it in your soul
if there is such a thing
The rain from the sky
drenches all you know

It is a pattern beyond breaking
from me to you
The only way we can truly shake
and dance in a sultry move

And so there I leave you
walking on the stage
You seem extremely happy
still in a sonic groove

You are beyond faking
life smashing through the pain
The passion you are making
forever marked with fame

Fragments Of A Dream

2011-02-23T10:30:00.000-08:00

Waves and waves of pain
Smashing against the rocks
As the cold wind envelopes the day
Destiny has fallen from the sky
Leaving our hearts barren
The breeze sweeping through your hair
Drying your flowing tears
Longing for the light
It melted away with the sun
Bringing only darkness
Fragments of a dream
We struggle to remember
Of your body under the covers
Pressed against mine
Devoid of the external world
The heat of our embrace
Driving us inward
Into a new reality
Your beautiful eyes see through me
Leaving the world behind
Your stellar life
Forever in my presence
Giving our hearts love
Alchemy of emotion
Raising us from the depths
Of the physical world
Forgetting the war
Between hopelessness
And fate

Young Nubile Angels On The Run

2011-01-31T10:48:00.000-08:00

Young nubile angels on the run
Pursuing Hollywood dreams
Growling with shaggy fur
Female felines looking for fun
The Boulevard beckons all the babies
To strut their stuff
Take life by the horns
Rocketing from the icons
To forge a new path
The City of Angels drags you in
And spits you out
Whether or not you win
You have the beauty
The rock and roll power
Pursue it on the stage
During the killing hour
Awash with chemicals and love
Laid bare for the world to see
A miracle of excess and wisdom
As plotted in the past
In a fevered dance
We are not sheltered
From romance
The love in your eyes
Staring into mine
Damn the world
And the expression thereof
Your flesh against my back
Remembrance of your hand in mine

A Vision From The Angels

2010-12-15T06:14:00.000-08:00

Emotion falls down like rain
As the tears on your face
Drop to the ground
Impossible to let it go
Because love dug too deep
Planted the seeds in the earth
Blooming without respite
The years make no difference
Time is an illusion
The past only prelude
For an obsession of the future
The poetry a mere veneer
For the passion that lies beneath
The world and stars will die
Leaving nothing but our love
Romance is only a word
That fails to capture
What is between us
I can see you before me
A vision from the angels
Graceful in the light
Looking for happiness in your eyes
We will be there soon
No matter what the darkness brings
How much love
Brings the dawn
Nothing will kill these words
Or what they mean to you
I feel you here close to me

Your Heart Is Beating In My Hands

2010-12-06T23:02:00.000-08:00

You thought it was the end
Hoping for oblivion
Only to find awareness
Rising from the ashes
Life can be murder
A ceremony of foolishness
Your heart is beating in my hands
Speaking the truth
Marking time with wisdom
Men like strange pussy
Women want what they want
After the sex
They collapse in each other's arms
Awaiting the first rays of dawn
After the day breaks
I still want to see you
Not on some twisted turns
Derailed by the rules of society
Some kind of fragmented honesty
Because we are so used to the lies
Whatever makes us comfortable
Needs to be shredded
As we look at each other
I see your eyes and your lips
Fragile is your soul
Not beyond repair
The hustlers die regardless
Of their cheap treasure
You are not one of them

Make Sure That Passion Is The Source Of The Flow

2010-11-09T23:14:00.000-08:00

I would replace the sun with you
Basking in your rays
Curse the night
For interfering with my gaze

Magnify your visage a thousand times
Across the world for all to see
All the other maidens
Mean nothing to me

I see you dancing
Underneath the lights
Your wicked smile
Hides something that bites

On the stage for me
Your beauty intoxicates
Something rare and true
That tempts the fates

Destroy all rules and laws
When they encroach on you
Because the rest of the world
Does not know what to do

It all comes full circle
Any way that we go
Make sure that passion
Is the source of the flow

Crush The World For You

2010-10-13T06:13:00.000-07:00

The deepest ocean in your green eyes
Forever lost in your smile
Along the darkest streets you are with me
I feel the warmth of your heart
Penetrating the cold night
I am never apart from you
Remembering your touch
Time has no meaning
Distance means nothing
The world spins regardless
As empires rise and fall
Your image in my mind
I can feel you here
Blonde tresses framing your face
Thousands of years can slip away
Without breaking what we have
I want to take all of your pain
And smash it with my hands
Crush the world for you
Drain all of the loneliness forever
No reason left to speak
Except to express love
Pour out my heart to you
So you can understand me
How much I adore you
Never want to make war
You know everything that I have
I want to give it to you
Be yours completely

Destroy City Blocks With Your Eyes

2010-10-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

Worlds melt away in your fiery tresses
Your dreams bloom as flowers in Spring
Pulling me in with the majesty of your vision
I know that you feel me

Not caring about what is proper
Outside the limits of society
Reality takes hold of us
Only for so long

Cut through the sadness and shame
Feel my strength as I embrace you
I have been there all along
You and I are the same

Our humanity brings us together
Whether we like it our way
Or we decide to compromise our dreams
We are blood and flesh

You can cry on any street
Wonder who is there for you
Destroy city blocks with your eyes
Let the coldness envelope you

Or leave it all behind
So it does not touch you
It is only a fading memory
Lost in the past

Smash The Stars Into Oblivion

2010-09-07T01:37:00.000-07:00

Words not spoken
Only felt in the heart
Discarding social convention
When I look you in the eye

The moment is ours
Everyone else in the room
Will cease to exist
As you and I bond forever

Smash the stars into oblivion
The remnants aching on the sidewalk
A bloody evening ends
Completely out of focus

I only want you to feel free
Coming from a place called love
Spread your angelic wings
And cover me

The battlefield is inside of us
Although we project it on the world
Take these scars from my soul
Add them to our pain

Passion is a word
Multiplied in your gaze
These feelings take us to a place
Beyond this world

Now I'll Rip A Hole In My Heart

2010-08-26T00:42:00.000-07:00

I want to take your face in my hands
Tell you what you mean to me
Look deeply into your starry eyes
Bury my face in your flesh

Don't say it's the time to be alone
Let me take you to the ground
Tear up all the years between you and me
Rip each other's hair out

Life is just a waste without your smile
I feel your body against mine
As if it were yesterday coming alive
Not caring who is watching us

An image for all time
I knew your name before anyone
Living in my eternal dreams
To me you mean everything

Now I'll rip a hole in my heart
So you can put some love inside
I never want to feel your tears on mine
Unless the pleasure is unendurable

Reach deep inside with your hands
Take my heart and make me understand
I want to feel your love again
Never going to hurt you

This World Is A Vagabond

2010-07-31T17:23:00.000-07:00

In love with the moon
The starlight in your eyes
A goddess of the city
I want to get lost in your stare

Holding on to the remnants of hope
Looking for another chance with you
Falling into your tender world
As you take me by the hand

Fragile thoughts separate us from each other
A barrier that needs to be smashed
Destroyed in the night
Never to block us again

If you love me I will die in pain
Reject me and I feel relieved
The deeper we go the more red the flow
I pray for you to hurt me once more

When I open my heart to you
You can cut it with a knife
Or take it in your arms
Heal it with your kiss

This world is a vagabond
Forever lost in a dream
You capture me with your eyes
Save me from despair

A Paradise Of Pleasure And Pain

2010-06-30T23:57:00.000-07:00

Blackness of shades
Thunderbolt in your eye
It all is a dream
As I wonder what brought me here
To such a beautiful strange place
All I need is to look in your eyes
And I live for a thousand years
Falling into your arms as we drift away
Let no one enter our sacred space
I remember the sweet and profane
Shining from you through the night
Melancholy feelings fade away
As I hold you in my gaze
I search for what is deep in your heart
A paradise of pleasure and pain
In the shadow of our desire
The world is something we abandon
We do not need those rules
Confining passion that we feel
You are my love
Setting me free on your wings
The most beautiful soul I have ever seen
Life is a maze that makes no sense
Logic collapses into a mess
Love is all that is left
The only thing we can give
After all is lost
All I see is you
Looking into my eyes

Forever In Search Of Another Day

2010-05-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

I will read that story
Promise you I will
The one about how you felt
In the morning haze

Counting all of our lovers' graves
The sky can bleed the sunset
Turn the moon against us
Drag our sorrows into the night

Forever in search of another day
That shone upon our faces
Warming our flesh
As we welcomed the sun

There is a boldness in touch
A misguided reverie in pain
I would welcome you in my arms
In the darkness

The sun rising
A pure feeling of joy
Fueling the earth
Making us whole

Not content to sit in the shadows
During a radiant dawn
Bask in the light
Embrace it

I Want To Ride The Rays Of Hope

2010-04-27T06:07:00.000-07:00

Solitude fading
A new dawn approaches
Breaking down the barriers
Of a long cold night

Healing warmth arises
Symbolized by the sun
Embracing our sensibilities
With a new kind of peace

I want to ride the rays of hope
Far into the future
Beyond the morning's apex
Crashing into another sunset

Never forget the sorrow
That we learned in the darkness
Receding as a memory
Taken back with the tide

Intersperse the madness
With tales of oblivion
Only to be forgotten
Under the careful watch of your eyes

Finalize our fealty
Coordinate our dreams
Falling hard in the present
Connected with the now

A Wild Rabid Dream Of Ours

2010-03-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

Felt it inside my heart
A wild rabid dream of ours
Pushing through the day
Melting in the sunset

The night waits for no one
A black veil demanding action
Before it is lifted in ecstasy
Intimacy unleashed

No rules
Abstain from the dictates of lies
Something sensed in your soft eyes
Before the weakness of rampage

Talk of courage is suspect
Let us all dive into the abyss
Smelling each other's blood
Tasting each other's breath

Caressing soft smooth flesh
You ask me with your eyes
Elevated awareness of charisma
Sanctioned by your smile

The allure of your breasts
Your nipples brushing my skin
As the sunset turns red
Dissolving into night

Step Down From The Stratosphere

2010-02-28T07:03:00.000-08:00

The world could drown
In its suffering
Give up its universal crown
Step down from the stratosphere

Fires could rage through the city streets
As long as I could drink from your heart
Escape the rising smoke by pure will
And the door to my freedom is clearly marked

All along it wasn't such a damaged life
As long as I could always leave town
And the bottles rolled through
Me sitting next to you

The strange path between you and I
Just as the sun would set
The night would steal
The trials and tribulations of the day

If your heart finds itself next to me
Don't break down and cry
Something in your last sigh
Don't break down and cry

If your latest plans seem absent of me
There is nothing that I can do
Except break a rule or two
In the early morning light

Beyond The Stars That Light The Way

2010-01-26T10:07:00.000-08:00

A vagabond on the city streets
Standing in the night with style
Another girl with nothing to lose
Watching the headlights pass on by

Beyond the stars that light the way
Feel the cold against your bones
Looking for someone to inspire you
Expose your beauty to the world

As your soft flesh is touched
Breaking all known rules and regulations
Being consumed by rising passion and force
A natural state of mind as far as I know

Searching for the last remnants of a dream
Battling back the trail of hypocrisy
Let me see the spirit in your eyes
Carnal energy transforms us

You see another solution
A way to escape the bitter avenue
Transform our lives with your beauty
Your power breaks through all existence

Hold them close to your heart
The destitute dreams of yesterday
The daybreak gives you strength
To make your next choice

The Eyes Of The Eagle

2009-12-04T15:12:00.000-08:00

On the edge of attainment
Treading not to carefully
Prefaced by initial rites
Awaiting communion

Return from exile
Circumnavigate desire
Explore the oceanic depths
Of the heart

The solitude is suffocating
Enveloped by distance
At odds with language
Mesmerized by memory

All is spoken through your eyes
As premeditated as your touch
Secretive as your smile
Penetrating through your gaze

Observed under your protection
Enamored of your strength and beauty
Confronted with the force of your will
The presence of your power

Break through the icy moment
The regal disposition
The eyes of the eagle
And into your soul

Let The Jaded Teardrops Fall

2009-11-30T04:52:00.000-08:00

Perceiving an eclipse
A bitter end followed by a new beginning
Caressing your face in my hands
I see the emotions in your eyes
Communication without speaking
Feeling our way wordlessly
The way you blush and understand instinctively
The world does not exist between us
Nor the hearts that have been broken
Evolution of desire
Accepting the inevitable
A reality hidden in the present
To be unleashed in the near future
Take my name as a lioness hunts her prey
Let the jaded teardrops fall
I see the angel in you
Presiding over a fanciful cabaret
The glitter fading in the starlight
Breaking into the realm of abandon
Feel my flesh against yours
The softness of your skin appreciated
The wetness of your mouth
Your breath upon me
Hold a dream hostage
Let time decide who rules
I feel your moist fur
Triangulation of access
You want the animal spirit
To penetrate your soul

Fire And Ice

2009-10-07T06:16:00.000-07:00

From the abyss of depression
Came a ray of hope
The depths of the sea
Were conquered by you long ago

I needed to hear your siren call
Before I lost my mind
Even if you led me to my death
Crashing into rocks and foam

Brutal epiphany of consciousness
Played out in a wild scene
Your voice loudly proclaiming
Independence

How many days escaped me
How many nights betrayed
As you surveyed me
To make sure I followed the way

Eyes that burrow into my soul
An embrace of pure strength
Statuesque and stately
Radiating beauty and power

Fire and ice
In remarkable interplay
Drawing me closer
To feeling alive

Ready For Anything

2009-09-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

Two bit cabarets
Not a question of shame
A passage of years
Lapsing into antiquity

Your eyes stare through me
Piercing my spirit
Sudden realization
Jolt of recognition

So carefully you played the game
Leaving nothing to chance
Cards held close to the vest
Until the final hand

One cycle ends, another begins
Taking it all to another level
Learning to let go of the past
Just like you told me

Your strength is captivating
Beauty relentless
Mind brilliant
Heart unfathomable

Ready for anything
What we show each other
What we share
When hands are joined

All These Dreams Invading Me

2009-08-02T21:54:00.000-07:00

I feel your love
From across the table
Sense it in your gaze
Warmly through your smile

You wait for my word
Focus on me
All these dreams invading me
Discarding the rules

I have seen the emotion in you
Heard it in your voice
Felt it in your presence
Let it wash over my spirit

Doubt plagued my heart
Made a prisoner of my intent
A wicked feeling
Bringing only despair

You walk in the sun
Holding on to your fate
It is not just me
I am here regardless

How can this go on
From dawn to dusk
On the edge of intensity
Between us

Untamed In A Forgotten Scene

2009-07-12T05:20:00.000-07:00

Some kind of clean vision
Transfixed in the light
Aware of her dreams
Untamed in a forgotten scene
Do you remember back when
You and I first met
The way the city felt
As we slipped it in
The night cascading
It was all I ever wanted to be
At one with your soul
Burning down an isolated road
Your eyes are no mystery today
I feel the remnants of your pain
The strength in your heart
Holding my hand from across the room
The things we wish could be said
How long can we keep them inside
Make excuses forever
Wait for the sky to conquer the rain
And pretend we do not care
I see the look on your face
In control of your world
Taking hold of my spirit
With no plan written on the wall
Have the flames laid waste to everything
We used to know
How to live without telling
Down here with the smoke

I Do Not Know Why I Do This

2009-06-30T11:44:00.000-07:00

Smiling like the sun
On a beautiful summer day
Regal in your grace
Silhouetted against the sky
Fragile under a tough exterior
Arisen from the sea
Once the pincers lock into place
You are hers forever
To be nurtured and adored
Within her shell
I do not know why I do this
It feels as if I have been hit
Surrounded by your love
There is no escape
I want to protect you
As you defend me against the world
Dying to be in your presence
The only place I find peace
You envelop me in a gentle fortress
When you feel hurt
The pain in your eyes is a whirlpool
I sail the storm to help you
Almost overwhelmed by your despair
The sun eventually breaks through the clouds
And beams through your entire body
Summer is here
The faint aroma of spring remains
As I look forward to seeing you everyday
By the shore

Carpe Diem

2009-05-31T21:08:00.000-07:00

To catch the rays of the sun
Basking in the glory of light
The flowers of beauty are in bloom
Nature at its peak
Riding the high wave of the cycle
I want to keep it all there
Forever at the zenith
Make a fortress of this perch
As the world keeps turning
I feel your heart beating
Deep inside of you
Is a spark of immortality
Impervious to any wound
When you took me in your arms
It felt as if you would crush my bones
We stood there conjoined
I wish you could escape the frail twilight
Ignore and postpone the dusk
Steal whatever still shines from the stars
You kissed me so hard I thought you would kill me
We cannot fight time
Or what it does to how we feel about each other
When the darkness falls I hear you breathing
At dawn your beauty returns
Like a silent film star
Preserved for eternity
A bird taking flight
Against a clear blue sky
Carpe diem

Submit To Me

2009-04-29T04:25:00.000-07:00

Submit to me
All of your failed dreams
The path to your broken heart
A body full of pain
Can you suddenly derail
A day full of hope
For a night without love
Was it more than a fantasy
Played out over the years
Following a golden dawn
Searching for reprieve
Are these wishes fencing us in
Maybe we should live what comes
Until the end
Not wondering about what could have been
What lies behind the veil
Are we victims of time
Felons of fame
Pronounced dead at the scene
Could I ever show you
What it all means
Behind the darkness
In the arms of a powerful soul
I can see all that you are
After you are gone
Whatever is left
I will keep it here
Forsaking the dread of the day
As the night takes us down

Mary Magdalene

2009-03-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

At the feet of Magdalene
Worshipping the woman not the saint
Her smooth skin under my touch
My hand on her silky thigh
Our love is under siege
By the powers that be
Renegades riding through the streets
During a blissful blue sky day
Will it all be lost as a forgotten dream
Languishing as the sun is eclipsed by the sea
The path is uncertain as night approaches
Leading a double life takes its toll
You eye me with cautious anticipation
Trying to second guess our fate
Our circumstance places us against the wall
Staring at each other in quiet epiphany
Our business is a barrier between us
A blockade that is difficult to navigate
To experience intimacy at a strange distance
I feel you upon me but I cannot touch you
Beyond the rules of the game
A farce of shackles I wish to throw off
To show reality for what it is
A moment in time between us
That no one can deny
You painted yourself for me
Awaiting our decadent afternoon
I heard your eager voice
Calling me to you

Swim In The Lake Of Your Dreams

2009-02-09T16:28:00.000-08:00

So you thought you would tease it out
Perhaps your beauty was put into a glass jar
As you seduced the mirror in the morning
Only having to rely on your last glorious moment
The night reminiscent of your superficial dreams
Thoughts of romance and fame
Drunken abandon to steady your nerves
You do not feel the strong embrace of his
Sucking in the vision of a lost youth
Standing alone in the abyss of the bar
Observing the last remnants of a written lie
This is the final rapture before the dawn
Fueled by a narcissistic image
Forget the narcotic eclipse of your soul
Use the power of your presence
In the end the flowers have faded
Drying and mourning into dust
The stars will shine upon a new brand of reverie
If the mask would be lowered
Intimacy could be revealed
A scarlet stain upon the floor
Swim in the lake of your dreams
Ignoring the desperation of this world
Soft flesh elicits memory
Drawing on the animal instinct
Your eyes follow the virgin path
Where pleasure followed pain
Then you smiled and saw the landscape
While embracing it in your arms

The Red Mask

2009-01-11T16:37:00.000-08:00

Tears flow into the river
Covered by the red mask
Ancient hills have found you
Searching for the sun
Your body a symbol of youth
Soft flesh upon the earth
The flower is in bloom
With all of the beauty
And organic wisdom we can bear
Bring out the younger expression
Fair to gaze upon this day
Love as a failed masterpiece
Unable to endure the vagarious
Nature of time
Smiling in the presence of space and time
I feel you near and embrace your warmth
A tragedy acted out at midnight
Of wanting a fleeting desire
Standing steady upon the rocks of hope
Forever enduring a mild apocalypse
Strategy of seduction coming into play
Annihilating words of love as segue
To a nonexistent rhapsody
The way you stare at me
With abundance beyond compromise
Take you by the hand make it reality
Swim in the lake of peace
Drowning in your vision
Saved by your grace

Red Is Your Glory

2008-12-02T08:11:00.000-08:00

Red is your glory
I see you
How can you be insecure and confused
When your presence is sheer beauty
I can see within you
True charisma
Depth knowledge and grace
I want to pull out what is in you
For the world to see
Are they blind
Do they ignore a stunning sunset
Beauty is not skin deep
You are permeated by loveliness
I can show you the center
You grab me by the heart
With ancient wisdom and tentative life
I can show you radiant vistas
That emerge from your soul
Feel life in your veins
Forget the future and reinvent the past
What is this planet
Full of greed and corruption
I hear your voice and have faith in your will
Let me show you possibility
Do not listen to the angry crowd
Feel your heart and trust it
It will show you the way
I want to destroy the sadness
That lives in your world

As Naked As An Angel

2008-11-06T04:16:00.000-08:00

And under the current laws
Filling our minds with misguided shelter
I do not want to be the one
Who takes it for granted by night
That these rebel thoughts forsake us
Driving us into blind ambition through hope
Perhaps you have always been freer than me
A mad aristocracy devoid of reason
Hypocrisy abandons wisdom
We all do what we must
Suffering pleasure at sunset
Why must it be denied
Because we hide behind propriety
The sun is at odds with the moon
We worship the sky above us
Waiting for a sign of absolution
This is a private sojourn
I have seen you
As naked as an angel
These times are etched in my mind
Configuration of desire
I see the pure designation of image
Your fresh bloom is experienced
A fluid river flowing ceaselessly
Beyond mansions beyond love
In the stark fluorescent light
The darkness of your beauty
Reminiscent of a dream
Freedom

These Dreams Are Not Allowed

2008-10-27T18:15:00.000-07:00

These dreams are not allowed
Stumbling through the darkness
A phase of restless wandering
After facing a mundane world
Devoid of the higher hunger
Facing the starless void
Introspective contemplation
No one can reach inside you
Your serpentine intestines entwined
Walking an uncertain path
Shrouded in the moonlight
Harboring antiquated hope
Sensuality confronted with a ruthless world
Dark eyes searching for the escape
Embraced by the will to survive
Meandering through the shadows
Falling hard on the floor
Nocturnal voyage beyond sleep
Cannot find the way back home
Not sure if you want to return
Unless you find that which you are searching
Scattered across the icy highway
The fragmented remains of loss
As you curse the path that brought you here
Even then wishing to push forward
Trying to find some semblance of peace
Connected with the horizon
At one with the landscape
Far from your bed

Interwoven With The Midnight Sun

2008-09-26T16:59:00.000-07:00

Fragmented patterns upon the shore
A cold and wintry night we endure
Isolation compounded by darkness
Your heart expands beyond our limits
Is it hope entwined with the stillness
A renegade let loose in your gaze
The seductive innocence you employ
Tempered by your spirit and youthful grace
A gift of the shining nocturnal moment
Interwoven with the midnight sun
For to capture your new beauty
Would crash stars beyond the spectrum
Let the angels feed your glory
As you walk among the crowd
Never realizing any infernal doubt
I see you in your pure sensation
Shredding your soul for me to see
There is a momentary silence
All thoughts are degraded
To find a final debauchery
Emoting from your eyes
A cascading sensuality
There is a silence that I am seeking
That I only feel before the dawn
When the madness is only approaching
The world is held at bay a short time
If I take you on a journey
Let us make it last through the night
Then I will know

We Only Have To Look At The Crimson Sky

2008-08-22T09:09:00.000-07:00

Taking a journey by night
Exploring the darkness of the edge
Not taking random experience to heart
All part of a savage ride
You search for what is yours
On a mission of your own will
I saw you clinging to the rail
Expressing your deepest hopes
The shadow of your eyes
Understanding all you need to know
I have seen into your world
When it appeared so far away
These times have not come between us now
We only have to look at the crimson sky
That brings another round of sleep
While we pursue all of our dreams
Scrambling on the ground
You wonder what it means
Doing what you need to survive
To see the rest of the day
Everything you feel is a memory
Unfolding in my mind
I do not care about the past
As long as you know me
These traces on the ground
Are memorized in our absence
You are one with the horizon
No new escape can free me from your arms
We walk into the dawn

Dissolute

2008-07-30T05:57:00.001-07:00

Covering your tracks in the rain
No way to unburden your soul
After living such rancid dreams
Desire has quickened its pace
Searching the darkest abyss
For the remnants of Babylon
Diseased among the refugees
The smell of rotting flesh
Betraying the beauty of youth
An image from the past
Fuels the fires of passion
The rest is left dissolute
Mired in what we can feel
And if this is our last sunset
I do not want to die
Out in the street
Immersed in such tragedies of earth
Take me back to our special place
Nestled among the foothills
Where we made love
Watched by the fading rays of the sun
Red, gold and lavender
They cannot steal these dreams
That are hidden in my heart
Living in the shadow of memory
As we face the future
The horizon appears wide open
Our trajectories more certain
Aimed at the rising sun

Altered States

2008-06-18T05:17:00.000-07:00

Ever watch the sunset
Feel all the light and energy go down
The darkness engulfs us
Time to go on the prowl
A faint breeze in the night
Awakens life
The boulevard is a river
I am lost in its currents
Pushing me to the nocturnal edge
Between right and wrong
An eternal shade of grey
I see the fragile glory in your eyes
Altered states have taken over
Another part of my mind
It could all be
Just a fading dream
Without the power
To last until the dawn
Never so easy to contain the fire
It has overwhelmed us all along
Soon we try to find it
Before it is all gone
Shadows from the past
Losing their shape
Distorting our senses
About what the future has in store
Talk of how painful it is
To leave it all behind
It is all in pieces

Rose Red Blood

2008-05-22T14:20:00.000-07:00

Rose red blood
Dripping from your wounds
Your words as common things
To be tossed about aimlessly
Curious insight into the sublime and the mundane
Total access
Pure naked ambition of ascent
To enjoy a perch from which to witness
The horrors of Babylon
Could you possibly be amused
By the violence and pain
Or does it add to your rancor
Which you claim is tempered by piety and insecurity
There is a devil inside of you
That would cause Satan concern
Staring into your eyes I see the demon
Luring the world with sadness
Only to pounce on an unsuspecting populace
That have fallen in love with the game
We exist as two counterpoint melodies
One piercing and shrieking and shrill
The other dark, soft and somber
Sometimes perhaps we can trade our parts
When we tire of our predicted roles

Art Incarnate

2008-04-12T12:32:00.000-07:00

Savage heart
Trailing through a valley of knives
Westward ho!
The matador has felt the horns
The climax has abated
Drenched in the blood of our ancestors
I felt the last pangs of truth
Smothered in your breasts
Our hearts lost in a dark jungle
Reminiscent of a tender and fateful journey
I found you at last
I rejoiced to the stars and the moon
Our tongues entwined
Your embrace crushed my bones
You are art incarnate
Tempered by the rational
I wish I could strip you of all reason
And burrow my way into your heart
The sun radiated from your face
The ripped undershirt you wore ensnared me
A walk through the brush I cajoled
Your lips touched mine
And all was changed
For profit or pleasure
I saw the anger and the love
Sometimes I think the two are the same
Did I look dejected dragging on a cigarette?
Show me the trail of dirt
Through the foliage
To a place you once called home

Broken Glass

2008-03-15T05:58:00.000-07:00

Broken glass cuts your image
Slices the photograph of your soul
The grainy landscape of your spirit
Captured in black and white

Shades of grey engulfing everything
Obliterate all color
There's all and none
Even blood stains have lost distinction

Your eyes keep staring past the fractures
Blue or green it is hard to tell
Dead eyes leave us haunted
Wondering about all they saw

New glass might fix you for a while
But it can always break again

Rusting In The Rain

2008-02-29T07:39:00.000-08:00

As if there is no other option
The life of one has to be chained to another
There is no need for sensitivity
In a world where we are on our own
Let the blood flow as an endless river
Strangling the memories of the past
Worthless residue of our experience
Meaningless pain in the night
If it all amounts to nothing
The world will continue regardless
Dreams festering in our souls
Awaiting the superficial recognition
Abandon all hope ye who enter here
Acclaim is never enough
It leads on as a brutal addiction
Thirst for exploitation
Eclipsing all else
Marching under the banners of ego
Falling under the sword of debauchery
Immediacy is the goal
Satisfy the carnal urges
Break the shackles of idealism
Endure the pain and suffering of existence
Standing in line
Waiting your turn
As if we are tools in the shed
Taken out and used
Only to be left
Rusting in the rain

Until They See You Bleed

2008-01-31T04:51:00.000-08:00

Deny the truth
No one knows what you feel
Until they see you bleed
Red spills out
All over the room
Seeing the hurt in someone's eyes
Awash in tears and pain
A moment set in time
Indelible
Shrouded in the softness of night
Tempted by the gates of hell
So little time
Yet so much manipulation
Dangle the meat
And expect
Connections through the years
Fragile as a dream
You appear before me
Receding against the wall
I see no judgment in your gaze
Rebel stance
As you are spreading your soft thighs
Ancient awakenings
You do not want to break
Anyone who has a heart
But you think of the past
Before the forbidden
When we awoke in each other's arms
And the sun shone on our skin

I Don't See The Point Of Grieving

2007-12-04T00:15:00.000-08:00

There is nothing here that I am saying
Why don't we take these words and pretend we are praying
I get up in the morning ready to live my lie
Looking into your eyes I see nothing
Destitute alibis feeding off of our dead idols
The word love is damned forever a mindless sham
We have our endless fun devoid of meaning
Leave all of our brothers in arms screaming
I thought there was something left for me
Besides a charlatan con feeling taking over
I don't see the point of grieving over these restless dreams
Aren't you tired of playing this game
I know I am
What the hell is happening to me and my sisters
Take these premeditated hopes and give them another try
I am here losing the remnants of hope
Killing the dream
All I wanted was a clear chance
Masturbation is a dance devoid of romance
Except between me and my soul
Take a fleeting passion between you and me
Try to make sense of the feeling of the sacrilegious night
Make everything a transaction that cannot let us be
I see momentary peace for you
Countries struggle for anarchy
We touch each other's hands
Take a moment in time
Maintain all the poses
In a sweet never ending rhyme

Inside Your Heart

2007-11-14T00:14:00.000-08:00

You can tell all your friends
About the summer wind
Because when all that matters wanes
There will be nothing left
To take the place
Of a thousand nights with you
I have in my hands
All I will remember from this life
Those dreams will now begin
To take shape in my mind
After all of this ends
We have the rest of our lives
To see what will never erase the pain
You take what I give
Use it as you can
All these years will remain
A distant memory
We must all start again
To live our destiny
Next time I know
I will never live in the past
Those days are over my friend
The truth has been expressed
I can see it from your hand
What others cannot say
You have written for the world
They will believe
You felt all this before
Inside your heart where few could ever know

You Said It Looked Romantic

2007-10-17T05:10:00.000-07:00

I saw the shafts of light
streaming across the dirty rug
The shadow of a bird in flight
soaring across the carpet

You said it looked romantic
If it were not for
The pain in your legs
And lower back

You saw me standing in the light
of a single bulb
One night when it was still
Except for the passing cars

You said it looked romantic
But you were tired after work
And what do photos prove
To the uninitiated

One day the building was torn down
And replaced by a parking lot
But driving down that street
Made me remember and feel

Playfully Cruel

2007-09-05T04:48:00.000-07:00

Sailing towards the final shore
was it worth it
the life you led
to die after your last journey

I think you would say yes
because you really lived
any other life
would have been a living death

You did what you had to do
to get from here to there
sometimes rather stealthily
sometimes playfully cruel

Using your sex and your mind
to further you along
You lived
Until you died

And everybody dies
but at least you had the time
to taste the sweet and bitter
before your eyes closed

Did he still want you
in his heart
when you lied down
and breathed your last

8

2007-08-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

The dawn was changing
Everything that we said
When the night was calling
And the sky was burning red
I will find the answer
Though I know not where
Through a mass reaction
The people become aware

The Color Of Dreams

2007-07-31T05:44:00.000-07:00

Soft gold light embracing
A world away from here
Try to hold on to the feeling
Eclipsed by reality encroaching
Flowers of doom blossoming
Dreaming in the softness of you
The eventual rainy wetness
Leading to a stormy night
Of passionate tracing
Could it be the color of dreams
A rainbow of seduction
Hot and heavy nights between us
A sudden feeling entrapped
You showed me your vulnerability
Soft flesh of color
Transcendent beauty in your eyes
In a dark studio
With the drapes drawn
I escaped everything dead
There was a lifetime to be found
In the rays of sunlight
Touching the sordid carpeted ground
I lived eternities there my friend
Cemented off a city street
Discreet
The greasy food congealed in my veins
As if a warrant had been taken out for
Yesterday and the shambles of the
Darkest muse had responded
To take the past under arrest and
Liberate my dreams

To Get Me Through The Morning

2007-06-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

Fade to white
Across the city
I miss the night
Take these ravaged apostles
In their sullen beds
Who is the trick now baby
Are you still breathing
I hope you will be fine
Let us not drive to the desert
Stand and walk on the street
I feel a strange sense of relief
But I was ready to do the deed
The sunlight shining on my windshield
Death would not be yours
Sanctified in the morning light
It's the pain in your heart
That will tear us apart
A rare form of communion
Inheriting the dawn
Striking in its appearance
Standing apart from solitude
With a patient madness
In your eyes
Who gave you all the options
Or maybe you don't know
What to do
All I have is your image
And a few of your words
To get me through the morning

Reckless Remembrance

2007-05-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

Sunset is fragile in its glory
The lights are intense
As the darkness descends
Impossible to grasp the moment
It feels as if it slips
through my hands
This is something I could not have planned
Forever basking in your presence
Something soon will turn out the lights
Putting it all beyond my reach
Struggling in the blindness
That becomes night
Random in the twilight
Cursing under breath
Because I have the memories
Stockpiled in my eyes
Destiny detained us
Savagely at first
Lost in a sea of sensation
Where one could drown of thirst
Prolific angels smiled upon me
Trying to find my way
At least those days were constructive
The memories seem productive
Angles shield what is worse
Ambition torn from substance
The way you looked at me once
Buried in the past
Mountains of time gone by
Reckless remembrance

When The Passion Dies

2007-04-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

The muses inspire from above
Pythia is intoxicated below

The Oracle of Delphi is disrobed
Oracles were killed for having sex

The slopes of Mount Parnassus
Washed in blood

Apollo has slain the dragon
Paganism rising

When the passion dies
You will feel it

From behind the barrier
The questions are asked

She gives the answers
With finality and grace

Or with a loud and vicious voice
From one who is not at peace

Sometimes her body shudders
Be it from prophecy or passion

Leaving her spirit restless
And her heart in ashes

Pictures Of An Angel

2007-03-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

I see the buckles on your boots
wild and unrestrained
A taste of freedom is so good
even though clouded by the past
The streets seem serene tonight
with animals unleashed
Pictures of an angel
and I don't want to look
Because the beauty is transcendent
burning all the looks
I see the hope in their eyes
drowning in the sea
Pretty buckles flashing in the light
it's a symphony of sound
The dreams look like assassins
wearing black coats
Fall on the pavement
scratching your hands
Crossing that fabled street
you let go of my hand
I feel the look in your eyes
watching over me
Your name means the sea
as it comes crashing down
Falling all over me
the street lights are unbound
The night is yours
completely

Arena Of Lust

2007-02-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

I hear those words
I want to stamp them out
Shred the lies
until there is no doubt
Love is a word
that remains in flames
Spinning around
in all of our games

Tragedy
won't get us too far

Drowning in the water
of pagan romanticism

Slice up the veins
that lead to our hearts

Push each other
until there is no way out

We stand staring
into each other's eyes

There is nothing left
of those outrageous lies

Take me down
before we both break

Heart In Exile

2007-01-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

Faded dreams
reigniting passion
Wanderlust
beginning to take hold
To battle melancholy
with sudden joy
Jagged journey
towards the limits
I feel you here
surrounding me intensely
Purity of purpose
becomes overwhelming
As stars collide
and drift apart
Trying to help each other
sort through the vapors
Skin is velvet
smooth to the touch
Enslaving visions
permeate the past
I remember the soft darkness
alcohol and smoke
The smile
full of life and wisdom
Dive into the slumber
that is the night
A rapid rendezvous
that lives on

Fast Forward To A Kiss

2006-12-18T04:33:00.000-08:00

Wondering what it is like to die
to walk that ancient shoreline
wrapped up in mystery
the final illusion

To feel at peace with the unknown
a certain kind of homecoming
an illicit existence
one at odds with the world

Remembering the strange thoughts of youth
a mix of immortality and the inevitable
imbibing on the drunken pastures of hope
reflections on thoughts of self destruction

A decision against death
at a very early age
though to contemplate it then
was bizarre

Fast forward to a kiss
our foreheads touched
she was wearing sunglasses
our tongues entwined like snakes

After the sunset
she sat on my lap
and kissed me
after dinner

I Smashed Those Days Of Innocence

2006-11-01T04:58:00.000-08:00

Dust infected memories
But there was a time
In the summer heat
When your tongue filled my mouth

Shape intersected vanities
A million heartbeats
Synthesized into one
By the smoothness of your caress

I did not believe in angels
Until I flew on your wings
And the rancid city did not matter
It was only concrete beneath my boots

I smashed those days of innocence
Destroyed a dozen dreams
As youth ripened into life
Trying not to believe the lies

The softness of paradise
Under her careful gaze
Remnants of a lost addiction
Beginning to take hold

Ignore judgment
Throw it all to the wind
As the moment cascades around us
With eternal finality

The Barriers Did Not Exist

2006-10-23T04:50:00.000-07:00

Touched by madness
a distant memory
of shiny nights
and colored days

Recognition
in the first smile
leading to passion
like a speeding train

The softness envelopes me
coaxing into a human passage
all that remains
of the warm night

To be so loaded
by witnessing this jewel
immortalized
in a languid pose

The barriers
did not exist
and could not restrain
all natural instinct

Infernal succubus
dragging me deep
into the pit
of desire

Resembling First Words

2006-10-12T00:39:00.000-07:00

Fill my emptiness with your presence
pushes me through the day
waiting for the sign of dusk
closes down my mind

Cloak ourselves in the darkness
watches while others sleep
taking some needed medicine
heals the deepest wound

Destroy the thoughts of innocence
falls down in the street
enduring all the punishment
drives the passionate rage

Harvest what is left of your soul
kicks into a new day
praying for the sign of night
closes down my heart

Read my thoughts in the past
knows what is in my mind
living on the edge of a new life
shakes my hand goodbye

Kiss my mouth with yours
slips along my body
existing in the physical universe
evolves in all mystery

The Human Sonnet

2006-09-17T12:19:00.000-07:00

Devoid of malice in her eyes
Regal in definition
A smoothness so pure
The will is good
And the heart transcendent
Time and space fall away
Leaving something here
Eternal
How can you be so kind?
A vision from my darkest fantasies
Goodness
But I am beyond benediction
A slave to my own desires
Human

An Apostle Of Night

2006-08-31T20:10:00.000-07:00

Take me to the darkest corner
the scruffiest visions
and the most exotic smells
wafting from who knows where

When I've had too much
take me outside
blow smoke in my face
and sit me on a patio

Where I can stare at the stars
and at old buildings
and imagine a ghost
drifting down the stairs

Let the rain fall on Babylon
and all of its inhabitants
dressed in black
products of meat and liquor

Breathing the cool air
walking step after step
towards an infinite destiny
wrapped in a bloody tourniquet

Someone shouts out of joy
down the street
Someone shouts out of anger
around the corner

Memories And Reasons

2006-07-31T21:39:00.000-07:00

Dazzle me tonight
With the sound of your voice
The light in your eyes
The beauty of your face

The coldness of forever
Separates us now
The memory is a dream
That I let slip away

I have another mistress
One I can never touch
She only comes to visit
When I’m exposed to the world

Choices were made
Many years ago
Sacrificed love
Looking for diamonds in the ashes

They built a city in the desert
Looking for paradise
Thousands flocked to the temple
Willing to pay any price

Secrets Of Love

2006-06-26T19:10:00.000-07:00

The time was set under the sky
did you perhaps know secrets of love
barely uttered methods of persuasion
techniques of interrogation

I will find the answers
in the folds of your clothes
riding the grass
piercing my heart

Does the sun reveal truth
that I would rather not see
but I have my memories
shafts of light revealing beauty

The darkness comes
like waves from the ocean
wind
fended off

We enter the palace
as the court is seated
receiving inspiration
from the notable one

When all is done
nothing is left
but shimmering traces
of peace

Beauty In The Ruins

2006-05-22T19:41:00.000-07:00

The blackness
infernal emptiness
captures your soul
drags you down to despair

Do you really need to suffer here
or is it your brain
betraying you
blocking out reason

Damn the spirit that grieves
it serves no useful purpose
taking us on an illicit voyage
cutting our throats at sunrise

Your tears ought to be illegal
drenching the moonlight
destroying all vision
decaying the dream

Sabotage destiny
until faith is shattered
and I witness
beauty in the ruins

La femme formidable

2006-04-30T02:12:00.000-07:00

In the darkness
looking at me
as if you were
a cat of Baudelaire

The secrets bore me
as does the structure of society
so predictable
so hungry in the night

Everyone is pretending
I don't give a damn
fuel the red sun
into what they call debauchery

I lifted the sheet
and marvelled
at the perfect naked beauty
beneath

No one wants to hear
about the pain
It has nothing to do
with the face of society

The blood can flow
and everyone seems happy
No one speaks the truth
for it has no value

Give It A Title

2006-03-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

The blood dripping from the wound
Heralding the end of pacifism
Crying out in scarlet agony
Sobbing in the dirt

Torn from the comfort of her arms
Shackled to the new reality
Of kill or be killed
Trauma of conflict

Life seems tangible yet fleeting
The smell of fresh death
Seeping into the nostrils
Like a powerful curse

The nightmare so real
That it seems a dream
Involuntary convulsions
Beating out a new path

The image will crack
To reveal the truth
Lust of reprisal
Changing our view

We feel the human failure
And learn from doubt
The flesh continues
Onward

Seven Deadly Sins

2006-02-25T06:27:00.000-08:00

Lust
wells up inside of us
A force that can not be tamed
as we risk health and reputation
to satisfy our carnal desires
Throwing money and time after flesh
The soft animal instinct in her eyes
swaying our resolve
Oblivion of sensation
keeping us in bondage
I am a refugee
between her thighs
The will is gone
my beast has emerged

Pride
Most of us would not admit our scars
we make a point of covering our wounds
There is an image
we want the world to see
Our emotions are kept imprisoned
deep in our hearts
We are at a distance
no one wants to take the first step
to be released from the shackles
I throw away common sense
standing naked before you
Assassinate the fear
move on

Greed
Coming down on us
as an insatiable hunger
It itself will gnaw at our insides
devouring us from within
More more more
is the battle cry
Leading us to heaven and hell
it is never enough
We are possessed
I grab it with both hands
until my skin bleeds
The want is endless
as the sunset illuminates the city

Envy
She is the curse that withers us
the beautiful gem that leads us nowhere
The focus is on another
as we watch ourselves die
Our spirit is diminished
as this poison infects us
This fantasy is out of reach
because it does not exist
it does not live and breathe
I caress the remnants of the illusion
and put it to rest
The dream is gone
until it is found within

Gluttony
To consume without end
the maximum of carnage
The intake that cripples
and subdues
To sicken ourselves
while trying to fill the empty space
that can never be satisfied
The ultimate act of the physical world
to become one with the material
I feel it inside
as it weighs me down
The hunger is alive
even as it destroys

Sloth
The numbing descent into idleness
slowly driving us into a trance
It becomes too much effort
to rise from a prone position
We would rather slide to the ground
and become one with the earth
The energy is gone
as we slowly drift away
embracing the void
I want to let go
rotting in the dirt
Even the dreams slow down
as the abyss widens

Anger
Rising up in our chests
seething in our minds
The cause is inexplicable
frustration is universal
Emotions congealing into ash and dust
leading us down an uncertain path
The control is lost
as we go spinning beyond hope
beyond reason
I felt the rage
bending the light
The madness leads to blindness
and a new kind of horror

There Must Be Ways To Find Hell

2006-02-07T04:09:00.000-08:00

Did you ever have something so good
you thought that was it?
No matter what tricks someone
showed you
you thought that was it
So what do I care?
people form their judgments
in record time
Love as a strategy
feelings are chess pieces
engaged in warfare
We can only blame ourselves
So I guess we didn't care
in the first place

Not to be detached
Existing despite the cold wind
Irrevocable
Fused
unable to slip away
down the winding path
Head to head
encircling each other
without rules
Focused and faithful
beyond the social tyranny
eyes grasping boldly
as if to touch each other
Speechless

Transfixed
Sudden disarray of thought
Let me guide you
out of your fading melancholy
and down the streets of restlessness
Let us be reckless
pushing against the constraints
ignoring the shackles of illusion
Take a taste
feel the red stain
your smile is rouge
tempting the senses
Drag it out of me why don't you?
the way I drag it out of you

Try to identify my lie
it is mixed with the truth
as if from a demon
None of us are sheltered from sin
it makes us human
I can see the fire in you
and feel the heat
Take me by the hand
guide me to the flame
the pain blends with pleasure
You feel their sorrow
but do what you must
Take these open wounds
Suck the life out of them

You are out there
languid in the darkness
striking in the moonlight
Open the gates of remembrance
witness the infliction of scars
reach for the beauty
When I have a rare unselfish moment
sometimes I wish you had an easier life
The talons of the bird of prey
are exposed
Ripping into nubile flesh
making love with the willing
Surrendering the last vision
in a desperate dream

The stillness is dark and inviting
flesh is soft
hair is lush
The taste of vomit as we kiss
does not dissuade me
What are we without language
but animals of instinct
I found my way to the altar
meeting no resistance
Experiencing irresistible pleasures
drowning in desire
youth unleashed
I would have sold my soul
for five minutes more

Devotion
does the night really burn?
Or is it only your eyes
lighting the fire in my intestines
Are you advocating the murder of my dream?
take a few steps back
think about it once more
We all passed into this world
making our way beyond the thighs
The crisp cool night air
brings me back into focus
A focus that I preserve
only for you
Because I would rather be blurred

The sound tears through the night sky
but I am left unmoved
Pummel the air with ferocity
I am unmoved
Give me a reason
let her bleed if she must
There is something fragile
in her breath
that is vindicated in her spirit
Your blood flows through my veins
an ancient mystery is your soul
City in the desert
unlock your fury
let it wash over us

The savagery was expressed
it was a red beacon in the harbor
lighting up the night sky
with feelings of wrath
as two ships passed in the water
barely colliding
scraping each others' bows
It was time to pull each other up
from the choppy waves
Shelter each other
from discontent
The world was deranged enough
there was no need
to add to the disorder

Longing For The Embers

2006-01-16T15:06:00.000-08:00

If I could capture the night, I would
But I can't
To go back and dive into the darkness
would be a strange joy
To seize the moments of waste
and transform them into vibrant substance
Maybe it was as it had to be
The secrets locked away
Dreams break through the night
Taunting me
directing me down paths of futility
Able to touch only so much
I can see the faces
the words coming earnestly
Grasping traces
the fires fading away
longing for the embers
The numbness now engulfs us
memories betray us
becoming a sideshow of desire
I want to reach out and grab hold
keep it close to me
without getting burned

Discipline

2006-01-04T20:39:00.000-08:00

Discipline your ass
until the foul things
that come from your mouth
come no more
Drown you in a tub
Rip your tongue from your body
And put in a jar
the bodily organs that offend me
Christ do you want to see me
naked in a room
with linen strips
tied to my bloody fingers
Whip the soft white skin
of her back for her crimes
She died a virgin
is that the greatest tragedy
that sheds the most tears
In the end
he swallowed the cross
stared at the ceiling
took his last breath
and died

A Trick Of The Mind

2005-12-02T19:27:00.000-08:00

I see the parameters
The boundaries few dare to escape
What are they afraid of?
When push comes to shove
All see the truth
The scars you bear
Do not diminish
Your beauty
They are a trick of the mind
An illusion between me and you
You stand on the precipice
With a confidence
Like a cat
Waiting to pounce on your prey

Majesty Is Frozen In Time

2005-11-22T22:40:00.000-08:00

Alright
Let me get this straight
We gave up
And we are feeling ice
Majesty is frozen in time
The day breaks
Workers rise with the sun
They are wearing grey
I remember
Another time
Fragile and displaced
A time lacking in fear
You put on your badass boots
Kicking through the night

Burning All The Jewels

2005-11-17T19:41:00.000-08:00

Society is smirking
Getting what it needs
Pretending to be something
Beyond the air it breathes

Everyone is valued
Everyone perceived
To be so very holy
Down on their knees

I look into her eyes
I look into her face
I see the primal reason
Behind the human race

Factions are forgotten
We are so human we can bleed
We try not to think about it
Where will thinking lead

A society controlled
Masking all the molds
People want what they want
The rest left in the cold

Everyone knows the rules
Playing all the fools
Your hair smells like a forest fire
Burning all the jewels

The Most Important Lies

2005-10-20T19:21:00.000-07:00

The past is all around me
Inspiration and curse
At the time parts of it seemed
Unbearable
Parts of it
Triumphant
The past is a road that has been laid
A pathway into the future
We draw our strength from yesterday
Lessons have been learned
Hearts are still beating
The future seems easier than before
Since so much of it has elapsed
Into the past
The present is more centered
The Now more defined
Life is a fever
That breaks at a certain point
But the fire remains
Smoldering inside
Burning unexpected tangents
Our life force more focused
As long as we can be honest
And try to shake away
The most important lies
That cover who we are
And what we want
From the world
From ourselves

Dedicated to Rimbaud. He is 151 in age and in proof.

You Stand In The Light Of My Dreams

2005-09-21T12:50:00.000-07:00

These times they are phantoms
To what came before
I felt a surge of fallen shining beauty
Like nothing that I had ever seen
You stand in the light
Of my dreams
You always wanted something beyond
What the world could ever show
Will we live life in the shadows
In the empty halls without doors
You do not want to speak of love
Let it be all put to bed
Those thoughts left in my heart
Where they can do no harm
I'm just a stranger
Who is passing by
What are we
But people passing by tonight
I thought I saw something in your eyes
A flicker of recognition and hope
Of a feeling felt long ago
I remember your tears
When you heard my words
That summer burned the sweat into our skins
Holding your face in my hands
The beauty one man understands
These times are traitors
To what we know inside
The end of all your pretty plans

Pain

2005-08-19T07:41:00.000-07:00

Is the pain gone
It felt as if it would never go away
A living reminder of past misadventures
Throbbing and twisting beneath the skin

Emotional pain can be just as bad
Smashing us hard in our chests
Pushing down on our faces
Making us somber and despondent

The darkness makes us sink
Be it from karma or chance
Drowning us in the abyss
Of brooding exile

We seem distant and removed
Taciturn and withdrawn
Flying on fractured wings
Broken blood vessels and ruptured tissue

Our hearts are wounded yet will not scab
The emotional weight felt with every step
Isolation in a crowd
Obscuring our vision

Without pain we would not know pleasure
A dichotomy of madness
Trapped in an illusory cycle
Until what end

The Revolution Begins In The Heart

2005-08-18T10:13:00.000-07:00

Tear down these walls
that keep us afraid and alone
The solitude bears down on us
like a runaway train
Ripping us limb from limb
Leaving us bloody on the tracks
Crouching in the shadows
watching the feelings drift
witnessing a muted soul
The revolution begins in the heart
and feels its way into the mind
Do you ever feel the need
to shred the torn curtain
to break apart the iceberg
between us
Passion can not be bottled
it exists as fire in the wind
Take these fated fantasies
and let them rest in peace
Fragmented in the past
sleeping in the darkness
blooming in the moonlight
Beauty has the power
I can not say if that is right
but it is in the eye of the beholder
Even though society
judges our every step
Tear down these walls
that keep us apart and without

Fire

2005-08-08T12:49:00.000-07:00

Fire
in your hair
Contemplating your lithesome gait
and the independence of your spirit

I see mercy in your eyes
Recognition in your stare
Time and space lose meaning
when you are near me

You can not be constrained
fences are anathema to your existence
You must run free
marking many miles

Honesty engulfs your soul
You wander far and wide
bringing grace and wisdom
along for the ride

The adventure begins
Energies collide at the crossroads
Have I met the stunning vagabond
of my dreams

Unique sister
you follow your own path
and I follow mine
We always meet at the nexus

These Strains

2005-07-21T20:40:00.000-07:00

These strains have catapulted me
beyond where I was before
A cosmic tumble in the night sky
I can finally see somewhat
beyond the pain
How much tribute do you need
Your desire is as endless
as the pathways of the stars
The bruises have more or less healed
leaving a twinge of remembrance
We are parallel to infinity
wandering through a neon sky
Peace is within
You demand my very soul
but give riches in return
Old wounds grab us by the neck
and drag us along
until they finally let go
as if to surprise us
Is everyone ready for round two
The flagrant scars of yesterday
have turned to faded scarlet
The shadow of pain remains
as a reminder of the misadventures
of the past
Those misadventures being some of my
greatest memories
fabled storied nights from the past
coursing through my veins

Beauty In A Word

2005-07-09T12:45:00.000-07:00

I lost a piece of the sun
That is drifting away from me
Filling me with anger and sadness
The memories rise in my throat

Beauty in a word
Enveloping me
The kindness of love
Contrasting with a world of brutality

The intimacy has been murdered
Quickly and cleanly
Without wiping the blood from the blade
Distance

Truth always getting in the way
Impeding progress
Afraid to lie naked
Beyond the lies

A time to be satisfied approaches
Pressing through the clouds
That eclipse the light
And keep me from what is mine

The Lost Moments

2005-07-07T20:03:00.000-07:00

I can not remember
The exact nature of the past
In retrospect vision is blurry
History is lost
Sequences of events are blocked out
Any given night can be blacker than black
As it is blacked out
Only a few rays of light
Penetrate the void
Offering little comfort
And no solace
The time is missing only to memory
Because I was there
I lived the lost legacy
The wheels of experience were rolling
But someone forgot to take notes
Reality has slipped into another dimension
The real is still real
Only somewhere else
Curiosity drives me to attempt to recollect
Certain moments are recalled
But the process is very slow
And only so much can be remembered
Memory seems of little importance
Except that if we forget our mistakes
We are doomed to repeat them
Sometimes I feel doomed
To repeat a past
That has me by the throat

Only Thoughts And Feelings

2005-07-06T19:22:00.000-07:00

I want to go deep inside
To find out what I need to do
Deep inside me deep inside you
To feel your inner flesh
In an attempt to reveal your soul
Our bodies entwined is familiar ground
Sex is a battlefield
A trusted friend
Reaching out
We threw our bodies against each other
You smiled and I saw the sun
Dancing in your eyes
Reflected in your stride
Life became more difficult
Because I made it so
The answer was in the palm of my hand
My fist was clenched obstructing truth
I blamed the world
When it was my doing
I let it all go
Start fresh
Look at us now
If we knew the future back then
We would have screamed
It does not seem to matter now
We are diving deep down
Where there is no light
Only thoughts and feelings
Struggling in the dark

Perceptions: The Winds Of Time

2005-07-05T18:26:00.000-07:00

The winds of time
Changing forever what we will know
To be true
In our hearts

Cataclysm of humanity
Stretching the earth
And existence
To fit our perceptions

The dark clouds
Dictate our perceptions
We are ruled by our fears
Pushing us onward

We strangle ourselves
Make martyrs of our kin
In the struggle to survive
To postpone death

Searching for magic
For the carnival con
Seeking security
At any price

Afraid of the work
That needs to be done
Afraid of the effort
Required to change

Alternative Sonnet

2005-06-29T19:22:00.000-07:00

In the darkest alleys
there is beauty
And in the brightest rooms
there is hate

You can find someone
lying in the street
Masking the pain
saying something more profound

Than the cleanest one
whose filth is hidden
Bubbling inside
like a wretched cauldron

It is a world of difference
Shrouded in perspective